Tired

Last night I fell into bed at 8pm and didn't move until 3am. I was shattered - hence no post yesterday - due to barely sleeping Tuesday night.
Not much to report anyway. I walked 3.5 miles at lunchtime hoping to wake myself up; looking back having a nap might have been a better idea as I was working from home anyway. I stuck to the egg fast and didn't drink; did my squat challenge and didn't get on the climber. My back is feeling a lot better today so I may try to tomorrow morning.
And that's about it for Wednesday.

Mission accomplished. Eventually.

So I arrive at the hospital 20 minutes early having been told to come at 12. That's not a 12:00 appointment, just when they want us all to arrive, apparently, because the afternoon surgical session doesn't even start until 13:30, but they want everyone here at 12 to check in and sit around like idiots. There were 3 other patients in the waiting room by 1:30, at least 2 of them having procedures requiring general anaesthetic - so probably longer and more involved than mine, yes? Yes. So they schedule me third (not that they told me that, I just heard the receptionist & nurse talking.)  Oh yes, and the first guy doesn't get taken down until 2pm. So not only was I going third but they were also running late from the beginning. I HATE this hospital. I think I'd rather go blind than come back here if I need more treatment. I HATE HATE HATE HATE it. How can an organisation supposedly based on healing be so fucking inconsiderate? The waiting room was sweltering, no water available, and the staff told us nothing...  while discussing other patients in ways those patients probably wouldn't appreciate if they knew about it.  Just to be clear, HATE. I'd actually rather have been at work - with.eye.pain. Truly. Especially as this treatment is essentially an experiment that may confer no or very limited short term benefits. FFS.
I actually got taken to the theatre at 15:40 - only 4 hours or so after I got there. The procedure took 20 minutes including the obligatory pre-op chat with the surgical nurses (which I actually enjoyed) so I didn't really feel the balance was quite right there. Luckily the local anaesthetic had zero effect on my balance, my stomach, or my eye sight so after all my concern about leaving by taxi or getting M out of work to collect me I actually walked the mile to Reading station, travelled back on the train, and then walked another 1.5 (approx) miles home with no ill effects apart from sore feet. Then we ordered a takeaway and I drank whisky because after all that I lacked the energy to cook or behave.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs
Lunch: cream cheese pancakes walking through Reading
Dinner:  egg drop soup
Snacks: cheese, nuts and pork rinds - the last 2 illegal but portable and (in the case of the rinds) homemade so no nasty additives (or hidden carbs)

Trying to stay positive

Something weird (and good) is happening to me...  I'm still egg fasting at the moment - over the weekend I added veg to dinner and ate some leftover sausage, feta and spinach frittata instead of following an egg fast recipe but stayed in the ball park - and yesterday I woke up totally uninterested in having breakfast. So I delayed eating till I was hungry - which didn't happen until lunchtime! Almost unheard of for me, I tend to generally eat all my meals unless I've stuffed myself at lunchtime. And this morning it happened again! I have been having a cup of 'bulletproof coffee' in the mornings to help get the high fat levels required by the egg fast diet, but I've done that every egg fast day but one and never before yesterday did it noticeably affect my appetite for breakfast. Although today I did have 2 babybels before lunch, possibly because I was more bored than yesterday rather than hungrier.
At lunchtime I went for my usual walk. My walking buddy is leaving the company in August - I'll have to find a way to motivate myself to keep it up on my own, as quite often I feel lazy but change my mind when I know I'll have company. I'm being renewed until the beginning of October so I'll be around a bit longer than he will.
I intended to train this morning I got as far as putting all my training gear on and getting on the climber, despite some early back pain, because I hoped it was just that I had stiffened up or slept funny last night. Almost immediately I was doubtful that was the case and I got off straight away as I don't want to hurt myself properly. The pain was on the left hand side of my back, just below the bottom edge of my shoulder blade, and it was really dreadful - particularly when I tried to turn and when I breathed in deeply. It did ease up on my own walk at lunchtime (possibly due to a combination of paracetamol and ibuprofen that I took as soon as I was confident the completely ineffective solpadeine was no longer in my system along with very gentle exercise and sunshine). So so so hoping tomorrow is a better day, I don't think my steroid injection expedition will be more pleasant in combination with a bad back...

Food today:
Breakfast: -
Lunch: egg mayo
Dinner:  egg drop soup
Snacks: cheese and one hard boiled egg. I confess to also nibbling a little gammon which is obviously illegal on the egg fast but not exactly heinous.

Sob

Aaarrggh
I feel like someone stabbed me in the back - with a sword - and now they're twisting the blade.
Solpadeine isn't touching it.
Don't know what I've done to it
Great start to the week...
Need a (careful) hug - but I'm in the office so hugs are not available.
Sob sob whimper groan

Restless...

Why does one beautiful day have to be followed by a dreary one? It's such a shame that summer can't just settle in.
I worked from home today, and didn't walk at lunchtime because it was just too dreary - and humid - to be appealing. I did however spend 35 minutes on the climber - almost back to where I used to be in terms of duration (although it still feels harder than it used to and I now have a touch of backache. I also did 20 counter air squats (which I shouldn't have really as today was a rest day on the challenge). After work I did go for a walk - it was still dreary, but I just felt really restless after a day spent on my bum staring at a laptop monitor. I walked around the roads for 3 miles and while I didn't find it a patch on walking in a wood on a sunny day, it did at least burn off some of that excess energy.

Food today:
Breakfast: fried eggs
Lunch: Lemon baked Custard
Dinner:  egg mayo
Snacks: cheese

What a beautiful day...

My walk at lunchtime today was really pleasant (although I did wish I'd brought something cooler than denim jeans to change into).
I spent the day trying to call the hospital (unsuccessfully) about my appointment next week. I'll be getting a local anaesthetic for the procedure and they said I needed someone to take me home afterwards. I think that's overkill and would rather either use the train or call a cab but I don't want them keeping me there all afternoon if they won't discharge me without a carer. Does anyone know what the situation is?It is only a local to numb the side of my face so they can inject steroids around the eye socket. How bad can that be? It sounds very non-intrusive to me, but I'd appreciate a more informed opinion :-)

Food today:
Breakfast: Lemon baked (egg fast) custard
Lunch: egg mayo
Dinner: cheesy scrambled eggs
Snacks: cheese

Knackered

Freezing in the office again today.  Apparently there�s a plan afoot to gut this office and refurbished it from the ground up - hope they get a move on (and let us all work from home as they do the work)
I went for my normal walk at lunchtime ;it was less fun than usual because a) there was a bitterly cold wind and b) we were joined on the walk by a couple of extra colleagues whose walking style - and shopping style - wasn't 100% compatible with mine or that of my usual walking buddy. It wasn't bad, but I felt a bit rushed coming back and I prefer to feel more comfortable that I'll be back on time. Still, it's always good to get away from my desk, and as I'd already spent 25 minutes on the climber (all in one go too) and done 20 counterbalance air squats I feel I had quite an active day. I do want to add in planks and chin up / pull ups too though - maybe next week.
After work I spent most of the evening in the kitchen. I always have plenty to do, but I also choose to stay in there longer than need be so I don't spend the whole day on my bum. An antidote to office working, if you will.
Tired again today so it's time for bed...

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs
Lunch: cream cheese pancakes
Dinner: Asiago Baked Eggs
Snacks: cheese